My struggle with false memory OCD and ways to cope with it

     MY STRUGGLE WITH FALSE MEMORY OCD AND MY WAYS TO COPE WITH IT

  WHAT IS FALSE MEMORY OCD?

                   False memory OCD is a mental disorder in which our mind forces us to believe something which didnt happen in real but our mind imagines a scenario due to fear and compels us to check things again and again for satisfaction.

WHAT HAPPENS IN FALSE MEMORY OCD? 

           In this disorder, our mind just popps up a random thought about something due to fear of chances for it to happen, but due to fear,, we pay attention to this thought and become worry and anxious,. We think that whatever we are thinking is real whereas in real this is just a thought, not a reality. Due to excessive thinking and worrying over that thought, our mind sends signals that something is wrong.. To erase that doubt we begin to check things again and again to satisfy our mind..But in reality due to checking again and again instead of mental satisfaction we are making ourself obcess over it and we cant satisfy ourself, we are just making things worse. We think that if we stop obcessing over that thing,, something wrong will happen. These kinds of thoughts are so repeative that they make us worry and cause anxiety..It makes us unable to focus over other stuff going on in our life. No matter how many times we have checked the things , we cant satisfy ourselves and we cant get rid of these kinds of thoughts. 

MY JOURNEY OF FALSE MEMORY OCD

                         I am going to share my journey with false memory ocd. I never realized in my early teens that why i check light switches in my home again and again..why i check whether i correctly placed my shoes on rack or not, why i clean my glass again and again and hesitate to drink water from someone else glass without cleaning it several times..Once during washing glass,, i remember that i broke it due to harsh cleaning of it and made my finger bleeding. I always used to satisfy myself by saying that maybe i am careful about stuffs or i want things to be perfect and i used to think that its a good trait..But in my late teens, i realized that it was not a  good thing infact it was a curse. Cleanliness is a good thing, to place things in order is a good thing but obcessing over it is a.really really dangerous thing. 

Now let me discuss the first time i encountered the false memory ocd. It first happened when i were 19. During my mdcat preparation, a thought came in my mind that i should buy new books in order to pass exams whereas i had old books but in good condition, but my mind forced me to think that i need to spend money in order to buy good books in order to pass the exams., otherwise i would fail. That thought was soo foolish but my mind took it serious and started believing that whatever i were thinking was correct  . It seemed that i were not a single person infact it seemed like i were two people in one body. I knew that whatever i were thinking is a  bullshit but my mind started causing repetitive thoughts and believed that bullshit. It became an obcession and i became unable to focuss on my studies..I just wanted to buy new books . My inability to buy new books caused anxiety which lasted for 3 months after which i went to a trip and when i came back my obcession for new books had gone and there i realized the ways to cope with false memory ocd. 

Another obcession that i faced was that a thought popped in my mind that what if i have accidentally sent someone a friend request on fb. In real i know that its not true i am very careful about using fb. instead of checking again and again on my fb newsfeed i were not able to satisfy myself. This thought is so repetitive and intrusive that we cant challenge it .  It makes itself seems so real that we have to listen to it despite we know the fact that its a total bullshit  .  

WAYS TO COPE WITH THE FALSE MEMORY OCD:

             
I am gonna tell you my ways to cope with false memory ocd..

• Ignore the thought. Check once. If everything is fine. No need to check again and again. Understand that its ocd. 

• Dont tell yourself that i should resist the thought from coming. Actually it can make it worse. Instead of doing this, keep yourself busy and replace your thoughts with positive ones .

Continue this practice for atleast one week after which this thought will no longer bother you. 

• Spend your time with family and friends. Do fun with them. Remember that ocd is a kind of beast that wants you to spend your time with it. Life is too short to spend your time with someone who gives you tension and anxiety and generates thoughts that dont even make sense. 

• Remind yourself that your false memory ocd is due to your past blunders and bad experiences..These blunders and bad experiences make us grow and make us to learn things. We should not make them a big deal. Everyone does blunders..Stop obcessing over perfection..Nothing is perfect..Sometimes we should let go of things. 

Overthinking leads to failure

               OVERTHINKING LEADS TO FAILURE

 

                              Sometimes when a person starts to overthink ,it definitely leads to depression. Thinking over a problem is a good thing,but obsessing and overthinking over a problem is a bad thing and is injurious to our success.

                                I can say this for sure as this was my case.I think we should try our best and if after that you fail ,you should not regret .Rather than regretting ,you should accept it as destiny or SHOULD  try again, it depends on you . I was very much closer to success at one point in my life .BUT one thing that lead me to failure as well as depression and OCD was my mind obsessing over my perfection of goals . Even my mind started thinking unreal things .Not only my mind thought about baseless and unreal things ,but also my mind started believing and accepting that thinking as " REALITY"  .

                             I can say that i have struggled a lot with my mind. It seems easy to stop overthinking but in actual it is not. But we can surely improve our habit of stopping overthinking and after improving that habit we can reach to the point when our brain is programmed to think only about things that are reasonable and things that require our serious attention . It would be more clear by my example;

 MY STORY AND EXPERIENCE AND A LOT OF LESSONS FOR YOU GUYS TO LEARN:

                       In 2016, when i were preparing for my medical college entrance test , i were preparing very hard and were fully passionate to get admission in medical college .It was one of my biggest dreams . I worked hard from dawn until dusk. I studied almost 18 hrs a day. My preparation was so good that i used to top my academy tests and my teachers were confirm about my admission. During my preparation process ,my mind started to overthink over simplest things and made  them complicated. My mind became hungry for perfection. I discussed my thoughts which were mostly negative  with my mom, dad and siblings ,they laughed at me. I became more and more depressed that instead of studying , I spent most of my time thinking over things my mind created. Deep inside my mind, i knew that whatever i m thinking is totally baseless.But i took almost 3 months to get over that baseless thoughts .Later ,it became my habit to overthink over smaller things.

HOW IT LEAD ME TO FAILURE?

                      May be you guys will think that i m some kind of insane or mentally ill, but its not true. I was not insane or some kind of psycho, I just did a mistake, learnt from it and grew. Right before 2 weeks of my entrance test , i got into depression and got some panic attacks . A psychiatrist gave my some medicines which helped me getting out of depression . But it was too late , i missed that opportunity, that dream, that goal and gave up. I accepted that as my destiny and moved on in my life .But what i learnt in this process is amazing and I wanna share that learning and experience of mine with you people so that you people could understand that how our mind tricks us and play games with us . Here are some information, i m going to share.

HOW OUR MIND TRICKS US ? HOW IS OUR MIND OUR OWN BIGGEST ENEMY? HOW TO PLAY SMART TO COPE WITH OUR MIND'S TACTICS? 

•            Whenever we set our goal and obsess over that goal ,then our mind is switched more towards negative thinking and fear of failure. Our mind shows us dark side of things and shows us that we should be more cautious and should avoid blunders , which is obviously a good thing. As i told you guys before that thinking is good but overthinking is bad .No genius ever existed without thinking and reasoning but overthinking leads our mind to create things that are not real but are our own imaginations. And obsessing over our own imaginations make us think that whatever we are thinking is real despite people laughing at you and telling you that whatever you are thinking is not true and is only your imagination.            

           

•            The only way to save from your mind tactics and to avoid baseless thinking is that you should check your mind.Now, you guys are thinking that how is it possible to check your thinking,,,,,,. This is very easy. Our mind is a thought generating machine . Whenever a thought comes in your mind, see if its relevant, if it makes any sense, if it's negative or positive, will this thought help you or will it create problems for you.  You guys have to do this without getting involved. You guys have to avoid thinking over these thoughts . I am just telling you guys to watch your thoughts and  not thinking about them as thinking over them will make them triggered and can make things complicated.

•         As our minds are our own biggest enemies . So we should not trust every thought it generates. Basically our mind works separately than our body. We are not our minds. So it depends on us whether we like to think over thoughts our mind is generating or not. In my experience , mostly our minds think and works negatively .And most of the negative thoughts our minds generates are baseless and is just a habit of our minds . As we know that it is our mind's nature to warn us from dangers. So its our biological benefit. But in all cases ,our mind is not telling truth to us . It is our friend , when it warns us from real dangers and at the same time ,it is our biggest enemy whenever it causes negative feelings and emotions about things that cannot harm us.                  

       

•            The effects of overthinking and negative thinking is that it can cause depression, mental illness, OCD , bipolar disorder and also failure in getting success. To ask me more about this topic ,comment .

Effect of parents bad chemistry on kids

EFFECT OF BAD CHEMISTRY OF PARENTS ON KIDS

                            This topic is very familiar to me..As i have observed it very closely. ummm let me tell you guys that my parents really had bad understanding which i had been observing since my childhood..May be this is because my dad was was very careless and heartless and my mom was very complaining  Neither of them tried to understand one another. Neither of them tried to change themselves..Neither of them tried to compromise for their kids..Both were like two roary and angry lions claiming to be the king of the jungle..

TOP TEN EFFECTS OF BAD CHEMISTRY OF PARENTS ON KIDS

• It makes a kid less confident, shy and introvert.

     

•           It makes a kid rude, stubborn and hearless.

•          It makes a kid starting to have less feeling for             his/her   parents. A kid starts to disrespect and disobey his parents. 

•         A kid may suffer from mental illness i. e. anxiety,, depression,, OCD and others (in my cases i had all three of them😜😜😜) .

•           When grown up as adults, they start to avoid relationships in order to avoid the fear of being hurt. Suppose if they get into some relationship,, then their relationship with their spouse will more likely suffer because they have learned some bad things from their parents which have rooted in their subconscious minds.

  

•   It lowers a kid`s self esteem..

• A kid may suffer from social issues as they become socially awkward..

• Severe fights between parents can also create suicidal thoughts among kids and ofcourse the thought to leave their wild parents. 

• A kid may also get into some bad company and they can get indulged into some criminal activity..

• They become more sensitive and attention seekers.